They all kept saying the same thing
Get out there and exercise
Exercise like your life depends on it
Your life depends of exercising your body
She bought a bicycle
She rode and rode and rode
She rode like her life depends on it
Every evening and every morning
She rode three kilometers a day
She always met with a giant of man
He used to play football for the country’s national team
He exercised unfailingly from 5Am -7AM
He owned one of the fanciest buildings in the estate
He was just forty-five years old
He had three children
A very lovely wife
A fleet of cars
She didn’t notice him on the road as she rode that morning
She was later told he committed suicide sometimes that morning
His death was discussed by sports pundits and psychiatrists all over the world
They concluded he took his own life due to depression
She almost fell off the couch when she heard
She was diagnosed of depression earlier that year
She really didn’t know what she was feeling had a name
She just woke up one morning and her bed wouldn’t let her leave
Her mind kept reeling in darkness
Like a computer that crashed and was finding it difficult to boot
She thought it was just a spell
“I just need a little rest, I will get up in a while”
She lied down on the bed but there was no rest
Her mind was active but doing nothing
She couldn’t even process a thought to conclusion
Everything just seemed overwhelming
Like being thrown into a silo of grain
She was alive but choking from within
The choke was not really a painful choke
It was like a choke of meaning and purpose
Suddenly she didn’t feel any joy when she woke up in the morning
She didn’t feel any enthusiasm at all
She lost interest in all her hobbies and relationships
She didn’t care about anything or anybody
She just wanted to be alone
Ironically, it all started a week to her birthday
She had ordered cake, small chops, food and drinks
Her husband was running around to make sure the day was a success
She couldn’t even be bothered to get out of bed
Her children came to her room
She saw them
She recognized them
And yet, she felt nothing
It was as if they were both nuisances disturbing her quiet ruminations
Her husband thought she was just being blue
He invited his younger sister over
Together they took care of the children
Two days to her birthday celebrations
Her husband got married
She had refused to leave her bed for four days
She had neither eaten nor drank anything
She found herself crying for no reason at all
She was much more than sad
It was a numbness from within
Like the thick cloud that covered the earth at the beginning
Everything for her was void and without form
She kept trying to find that light from within but she couldn’t
Her insides were in perpetual sadness
She was crying in silence
Roaring within her own core
Her husband brought her people
Her parents and siblings
He wanted them to persuade her to snap out of the darkness
She was just looking at them
Like a zombie
She recognized them with her eyes
She recognized them with her brain
But she didn’t recognize them with h…
She panicked but quickly got a hold of herself before her husband could notice. She knew he wouldn’t hesitate to return her to the hospital if she didn’t put in a good performance. He had hired a cook, a nanny and a maid in her absence. She waited a little bit in the sitting room before moving to the bedroom. As soon as she saw the bed, her heart sank! She could practically see her coffin right in the middle of it. She stood before her dressing table and started sobbing! Why wouldn’t the demon leave her alone? She had tried to come out of it and love life again. Why does it feel like she had been recruited to partake in a sort of misery or sorrow competition?
No. She felt worse than that. She felt like the living dead, like a robot! Everything was dead flat. Nothing brings joy and nothing brings pleasure. Like a shut tap, the flow of her emotions had been shut off, and in a perverse way she wasn’t even feeling sad or unhappy or angry! She was just numb! Like an amputated limb! Just numb!
Her doctor had told her suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, like chopping off your head to cure a headache!
But death looked very appealing. At least she wouldn’t have to face people and prove to them she wasn’t crazy by saying the right things and doing the right stuff. She wouldn’t have to look at her own children and feel nothing. She wouldn’t have to be so mean to her own husband. She wouldn’t be a burden to everybody! She sat on the chair and got lost in her ponderings. That night she slept on a mat on the floor of her room. She felt the floor would allow her rise up easily the following morning. By 10am the following day, her husband took her to the beach.
The light came back on.
They stood in the water for hours! She was in his arms and he held her so tight she felt safe! He made her laugh, he whispered stuff into her ears and even swore he would pull down her panties and sleep with her right there is she didn’t return his kiss. She quickly kissed him! Her madness is sane enough to recognize the longings of a frustrated man.
While driving home that evening, he told her he had another surprise for her. He took her to a four star hotel. He told her mother had volunteered to stay with the children. She showered and they had dinner at the Chinese restaurant on the ground floor. She felt herself laughing for real for the first time.
Later that night as they made love, she could swear that she was fine again! The dog had lifted. Hallelujah! They returned home the next morning, everything was fine until she saw her bed again! She couldn’t believe it! The veil she thought had been thorn to reveal the light of God’s presence mended itself and kept the light out once again!
She lost her marbles! She went berserk and attacked the bed, she pulled the mattress out of its wooden case and threw it against the wall. The wall threw the mattress back and the mattress knocked her on the head. She was knocked unconscious and crumbled under the mattress. That was how her husband found her by the time he rushed upstairs to their room to see what was happening.
Her husband thought she was dead.
He quickly lifted the mattress and found her underneath it breathing quite calmly. Luckily, she didn’t sustain any injury. He carried her into the guest room.
He laid her down on the bed
For once he was at sea on what to do
He didn’t want to return her to the hospital!
How could one month’s admission be undone in such a dramatic fashion within minutes of her return home?
He decided to call her mother!
Her mother picked the call and listened intently to what he said, she had suggested several times that they pursue a spiritual solution but he was weary of spiritualists
He knew there are some people who have the spirit of God
He had also come across others, who would solve a problem and create twenty more in its place
The Bible says believers should test every spirit and be sure the one they are listening to is from God!
He told her mother to bring the person she had in mind
Her mother arrived thirty minutes later
She arrived alone
Normally she carried a white handkerchief from one man of God with her everywhere
She called It “Mantle”
This time she didn’t use the mantle
She sat beside his wife and made a phone call
She spoke with the voice at the other end of the phone for a few minutes, then she stood up on her feet and said “Father, in the name of Jesus, by the power of the Holy Spirit, I come against the spirit of affliction in my daughter’s mind, body, brain and spirit in the name of Jesus!”
She laid the hand on her daughter and the daughter sat up straight!
Straight like ramrod straight!
He couldn’t believe his eyes, what was happening?
Her mother didn’t seem fazed by what she saw, she persisted “Body, I come against the spirit of depression, the fog and darkness choking your soul from seeing the light, I command it to lift off you in the name of Jesus!
His wife suddenly screamed
A hoarse, heart rending, goose pimples inspiring scream and collapsed back on the bed
It was as if she was lifeless for a few seconds
And then she started breathing normally
Somehow, he knew his wife had been delivered
Her mother put the phone on speaker
He heard the voice on the other end praying in the spirit
His wife opened her eyes and started praying too
He didn’t know when he joined the prayer
They all prayed in the spirit for almost thirty minutes
The voice blessed them and rang off
And that was that!
He couldn’t even be skeptical
How could he?
He saw the instant transformation!
She was equally astounded
She suddenly found herself in the light
Or put properly, she suddenly found the light had come on in her
She couldn’t even remember the darkness anymore
She had regained herself somehow
It was wow!
The following Saturday, they traveled to see the “voice” at the other end of that phone call
The voice was that of the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt
He blessed them and prayed along with them
He assured them the affliction would never return again
It’s been two years
The promise of God for their home has remained steadfast
Glory be to God!
Ps: This event happened in Benin, January 2017
People say religion cannot cure depression
They are right
But the name of Jesus destroys it totally
It is a spirit of darkness and we are the light of the world!
Don’t you give in to depression
Say to that darkness
“Arise, Shine, for your light has come for the glory of the Lord has risen upon you”